Mmmmm morning

You know it's a good morning when.... You start with listening to Rihanna's "Cheers to that" while finding proof of that you've met Batman! Yeah, that's what I call a gooooooooooood morning.

Me and Batman, we're so cooleo!

-a-

In two weeks!

It's decided. It's booked. It's payed for. It's going to happen. For real! I am going to the beautiful green fields of England for a man, my man. And you know what? I'm going to work there. Hallelujah! Money is such a handy thing to have. Well, what is there to say?

Cheers to that!

-a-

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

It's August and the autumn is already sneaking in on us. The sun still beams but it's heat has faded and the wind that blows is no longer a cool breeze but a freezing hint of the soon to come winter and snow. Still I don't feel disappointed or sad. The summer has past even though some days will still come with warmth and remember us of how it was. But you see, after summery green comes the red, yellow and orange that glows with bonefires and hot cups of tea.

Searching for a job and finishing a driving license is all that will occupy my brain until I get it but inbetween... I will be gazing out up to the wild sky smiling to myself as realising again that autumn is my favourite part of the year.

-a-

Reunion

Tomorrow... No, today. In a few hours. 12 hours and 42 minutes. Then he'll be over. He who knows how to hold me so close that the rest of the world disappears. He who will press his lips so hard to mine that I'll end up gasping for air with a laugh. The happiest laugh that's ever existed. A laugh of joy, excitment and fullfillness. I laugh of love, my friends. It will be my laugh of love to the world, life and him. In particular him.

He is mine and I am his. I can't deny it. We match eachother. We're like the two pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. We're like yin and yang. Me and him, he and I.

B, I love you.

12 hours and 32 minutes. I'm counting.

-a-

Forgetting my mortality because of love

Spending a day studying physics is not the greatest way of using my last time on the planeet Earth, last hours if you choose to listen to the wacko priest in the US claiming that the world is going to end tonight at 18.00 US time. Perfect ey? Highly suspect that my physics teacher won't accept that as an explination why I haven't studied for the test on Monday...

Well at least I've seen the sweetest marriage proposal ever made if I die today, and it made me cry. True love exists! If you want to see it, click here!

Creds to Matt, you must be one of the sweetest men ever to walk on this planet and I'm sure Ginny (and all women and men who has watched your video) agrees!

-a-

Pom pom pom

Graduation dress - Check!

Prom dress - Check!

Prom ticket - Check!

Limousine - Check!

Graduation hat - Check!

Limousine

(Okay, maybe our limo won't look like this but... Would be nice huh?)

Getting things done for graduation, pom pom pom. Don't you just love it when you're getting done what you have to get fixed? I surely do! But the damn shoes still won't want to be found. I need shoes for my prom, somebody help...?

-a-

High five for first kiss

Elliot and Bowie

To continue on the subject of love that my two previous messages have been about I want to.... Show you this heartwarming little clip I found on Youtube today of the adoreable little kids in the picture. To see them show their affection with no hesitation or shame made me feel incredibly happy! This is just like it should be, happily in love!

We kissed on the lips! Me and her kissed on the lips. Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

When did you get your first kiss on the lips?

-a-

Pouring out a bit of my heart...

I love how calm you can keep, and I'm not being sarcastic. How once you've made up your mind you can keep so level-headed. I wish I could. I really do wish I had that strenght. But giving myself to you made me lose that. I dropped my walls. Once I have, I can't seem to get them back up. I try, o I try so hard, to keep cool and a bit distant when I'm upset or something has happened, but I can't. I cannot summon enough energy to create more hinders between us.

I want to be with you. I want to be close to you. I want to meet you and then never part, just stay together. Sit in a park on a bench and watch the world without noticing for real that it's changing because I'm so full of being with you.

I am an idiot. Because of you I act like a silly tot. I cannot stop or stare. I cannot help it. I'm lost, gone and long forgotten. Once I could keep the ice in my stomac. But it melted and now my belly won't stay on that low temperature. It's warm enough for butterflies to flutter around, dragonflies to tickle the inside of me and bumblebees to zoom around.

Damn it, I love you. With no walls or protective nets. I hate you for making me love you so much. Yet I cry because I hate myself for trying to hate you. You see the pick I got myself into? Exactly where I put myself. I knew this was where I was going to end up, weak and vulnerable. I did not want to. But, darn it, here I am.

-a-

Summer, sun, grass, and a bit of I love you

Eternal, Immortal, Endless, Everlasting, Constant, Unending, Incessant, Unceasing, Never-Ending, Ageless... Would I call my love these words? Would I label what he and I have with such heavy names? Would I be able to catch and properly describe the feelings we share if I'd thought they were all that? Would I ever have a need to try and make problems disappear, or solve conflicts if that was the case?

Does it even matter?

I love you like a sunny day - with a warm and golden glow, such as the one that caresses the frozen ground and convinces the hidden burgeons to flourish in the mild air.

I love you like the pumping rhythms on a night out - with a passion and heat burning red that can't be cooled down no matter what.

I...

I can't find words my B. But there's something about us that I would never ever EVER want to change. From time to time you make me so furious I could scream, and at those times I cannot for my life even imagine why I stand by you. But it always vanishes and I'm left with the fuzzy feeling of being held by you, heart to heart not even noticing how the rest of the world is gone.

I love you B. I fear it will change somehow, and it most certainly will, feelings always do. But it's true, for now and for a long time, maybe forever, I love you.

Sun on my balcony.

Soon I will share it with you.

To lie in the grass with you and a bunch of sunlight on top...

My summer dream it is indeed!

-a-

The Beatles

Link to the picture

Having the TV on with a program about how the Beatles made a huge success in the Soviet Union makes me realise how big they were, still are. It's simply so amazing to realise how important music and hope plays in people's lives. When there's something small to put burning faith into and trust, everyone takes that chance. Sometimes it can be religion, sometimes a friendly face and occasionally it's the power of music!

They're actually saying that someone built a guitar from a picture of one, made mics out of thelephones and stole speakers to be able to play Beatles songs, I'm stunned!

I feel like turning off the laptop and go get something to draw on. Good idea! Good-bye laptop, hello creativity? Yes sir!

-a-

Fear is a strong weapon.

Miss Cup of Tea has been lazy

No, I really haven't. School is eating all the hours of the day and night, except for the few I've been able to steal and keep for dozing off. But this is the beginning of the weekend with a birthday to celebrate, cookies to wrap and a little bag to pack.

What I do not have to miss is the dazzling sunshine or clear sky. Every day when looking up, morning, day or noon my face is warmed by the gentle touch of our closest star. Sun I love you!

-a-

A bed full of fluffy white sheets and duvets, what a dream

Sometimes getting up in the morning seems like the hardest thing to do. Who am I trying to fool? It IS the most diffucult thing to do, partly because it is the first thing you have to do to start the day and partly because it's most of the time damn comfortable in bed.

How I wish I was still in bed instead of trying to write something smart about the theory of relativity... Help anyone?

-a-

Cat, I'm a kitty cat.. And I dance dance dance

For all you kitty-cat lovers, like myself, here comes the cutest little link EVER to this furry little grey kitten. I think I just fell in loooooooooooove... HERE!

-a-

Moonlight, moonstruck... The moon

"The one reason I like, love, walking at night r u. U who shine up the whole bowl of blue sky with ur pale, but yet so strong, light.
I am no daylightcreature. I am a child who adores darkness and still I can fear it sometimes. But u help me to find a spot light enough without letting the lamps hurt my eyes.
Stars, never stop shine upon my face."

Something I wrote so long ago (uploaded without editing (yes I know, perhaps I should have but it feels more honest to write it like I did that time, Wednesday 15 of August 2007)) remains true. I am no child of the day. Sunshine makes me happy, it warms me and brightens my mood. But darkness gives me security, inspiration and a feeling of that a never ending amount of time has been given to me.

Moon, oh big spinning piece of materia high up in the darkness, I adore the sight of you!

-a-

Warmed

The room is full of music. It dances, swirls, spins and twists. It bounces off the walls and gets stuck in the curtains. Long tunes and short tunes but no false tunes or tunes out of tune. Music fills the air. Trembling and shaky, yet strong and powerful. Carfully it's wrapping you in a warm blanket of notes, perfectly covering every ounce of you.

A gathering. A concert. A big crowd of humans, filled with anticipation and joy, enters the massive concert hall. An orchestra. Stings, brass and battery. Magnificently they make noise that forms into a magical pattern called a melody, several melodies. All in unison. Beethoven, Vaughan Williams and Brahms.

My love for classical music is infinite. As for you.

-a-

Don't... let the bedbugs bite!

For some reason it seems impossible to get hold of darling doll B tonight. So, to say goodnight to him (besides the voice mail... and the e-mail) and the rest of the world (read: YOU!) , a link to Simon's cat that my little Verdandi reminded me of!

(Click on the picture to get to Simon's cat's page and check out the adoreable short films!)

NIGHT!

-a-

What's the meaning really?

I love you. I love you. I love you.

Three words. Such a terribly deep meaning.

I love you =

= I care about you

= Your smile makes me smile

= Your laugh is what makes me laugh

= The sound of your voice makes me shiver

= No matter how bad I'm feeling a text from you cheers me up, makes me euphoric

= When you're down or sad I'll break my back to make you happy

= I can't stand being without you

= It feels like dying to be without you

= I want to spend the rest of my life with you

= I would do anything for you

= You have my heart

= You are my heart, my sould and my body

= You are constantly on my mind

= I miss you every second that you're not with me so much that it hurts physically

= I LOVE YOU

...

So why do we ever dare to say these words?

Why do we throw them around?

I try not to, I work really hard to seal them deep within me.

But sometimes it's so hard.

-a-

The little blue bird sang me a song

Note 1 to myself:

When feeling a bit under, do NOT log on to Facebook and stare at pictures of people who has spent the last few days doing AMAZING things while you've been working ect. It will NOT, I repeat NOT!, help!

"I'm head over heels

in Love with you!"

Note 2 to myself:

Cherish the people that cares about you and show them how much they mean to you. B is simply fantastic. He's the world, the stars and the moon. Ha that's cheesy! Yes, but way too true to be ignored (which I don't do but remember, never do ignore it!). Even though pre-printed cards aren't one of your favourites, think of the thought behind.

-a-

The magical way of synonyms

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Peculiar - strange - Weird - special - Queer - odd - Funny - freakish - Rummy - quaint - Curious

Isn't it: astounding - amazing - fantastic - wonderful - great - super - lovely - beautiful - stunning - marvellous - glorious - fancy - magnificent - prodigious...

Yes, simply Mind-Blowing how many synonyms one can find for a word?

I'm enchanted, and delighted to be so!

-a-

I am in love with you... And I think very much that I might just possibly love you

The alarm goes off at seven. It's still dark because spring forgot to bring sunshine and thought mist would do as a replacement, which certainly is wrong. Legs feels stiff and screams with every bend they're forced to do. Another step, a bit further. Running, sprinting, FLYING!, then walking, stopping for a while... Then again: running.

Learning about hinduism and buddism: atma, nirvana, bhakti, brahaman... Light finally breaks through the dull and grey sky. Freedom.

For once slowly strolling around enjoying the smell of new things did not encourage me to buy things I do not need, success! A notebook in light brown (beige?) with white spots to fill with texts of love, dreams and secrets and one of Gaëlle Boissonnard's perfectly magical cards to send off to the island where B, my heartkeeper, lives.

O knees, wether you die today or not I will still be happy only to have had this day, thank you!

-a-

Fav sayings

I know I am silly but here's an epression I can't help but smile because of everytime I hear, see or read it:

You're the apple of my eye!

Guess who's my apple..?

-a-

Letters, mail, parcels... O I love receiving gifts!

Ooooooooooooooooooooo, guess what a pretty bag like this contains!

Well you might have guessed right. Have you? Have you have you have you? O mi God (Not that I am religious or anything but I have a weak spot for the expression! Maybe I should Stop using it..? Yes I probably should, will try to say something else in the future.), in the bag of bags I had received...

MY DRESS!!!

I feel pretty, o so pretty! And I pity, every girl who isn't me todaaaaaaaaaay :)

Now there's only shoe-shopping left to do, o no! Iiiihh, I'm starting to feel really excited about graduation and prom. Green green green, the whole world will be bright green and I'm so so happy!

Thank you mam for paying for my dress, so highly appreciated it reaches to the azure-blue sky, over the clouds and further, thank you! And thank you thank you thank you BHLDN for your fast delivery and sweet dress. I'm in love love love with my dress!

-a-

Hallelujah!

Why do I never learn from my mistakes? I mean, how hard can it be? Obviously frickin hard... Here I am once again. Sitting infront of my laptop trying to get an essay done the night before it got to be done. Hooray, I'm hopeless!

Well, common! I'm writing about freenabortion as well, super uplifting subject. Yay!

However, it should be a human right.

There I've said it, and you know it's true!

-a-

I love you Spring!

The air, the sun, the sky, the birds, the grass, the leafs, the bushes, the trees, the little flowers, the mornings, the evengins, the days... We! We all know it, Spring is coming! Oh, I simply cannot stop myself from smiling every time I look out, it's amazing to finally see the ground and hear the birds singing as warmth spreads from the blue sky.

Soon it will be graduation time and I've already got... My graduation dress!

Hat - ordered!

Prom dress - ordered! (Well you should know, I've uploaded a pictures and links to it already!)

Graduation dress - ordered and recieved!

Dear world, the dress is so pretty! In denim blue with little lightblue/white spots it reaches down to almost half my thigh. The waist is small, the bosom covered in a heart shape with little blue buttons for decoration. O my stars, I love it!!! Would put up a picture of it or a link to the specific link if I could, but it seems to have been sold out from the company I bought it Forever21 (Go check it out, they have ADOREABLE clothes and it was both fast and cheap for me to order two dresses!) and I haven't got any pictures to fully show how cute it looks. Wait and you will see!

However, with this lovely weather I can't stay inside on my laptop. Time to bake some chocolate chip cookies and get out for a run so I can have a picnic later o with fresh cookies and tea, yum yum!

-a-

Once there was a little girl and a big black wolf

I wanted to write a little note about a trailer I just saw, "Red Riding Hood". But I accidentally tumbled into a blog that I have to put a link to, because I immediatly fell in love with her drawings of "What now"!!

Back to my original subject, "Red Riding Hood". Unsure about your opinon and upbringing I can only tell you that I've always loved fairytales and old stories. Therefore I'm over the moon about this new film! I've never been into Amanda Seyfried (she played in "Mamma Mia"), somehow I always find her a bit silly but I hope this movie will change my view because if it's done right I bet "Red Riding Hood" will be AMAZING!

I can't wait until it's released in Sweden :D

-a-

Do you like beer? Well I surely do! I've never had Molson Dry Beer but I'm finding so many funny commercials on Youtube that they've made, I can't wait to have one!

-a-

Du ska aldrig runka bulle

Getting out from work was amazing because I could finally see the sky! Only problem (well I wouldn't call it a problem but a bit embarrasing (more like really funny)) was that I met a couple of christians on the bus as all I could think of was the song "Du ska aldrig runka bulle", not an ideal song to have stuck on your brain but it gave me a fair amount of laughs :D

Oh, I'm going to Canada this summer, woooo!!!! Canadaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! So hey, if any Canadian would happen to look at this thing, what is there to do in Canada? Any tips?

Canadaaaaaaaaaaa!!

-a-

Rent and Ray William Johnson

Man, have you ever seen a clip by Ray Willam Johnson on Youtube? No? Holy bananas, you've missed some seriously funny shit!

Well, at least you must have seen "Rent", aight? O common! I just got home from the most amazing musical I've seen in ages that was performed here, in my town! It just makes you so happy to think that all those so talented people lives here and had the courage and will to give us a show so fantastic I'm going to live on the memory of it for at least four days (after that my B's over so well.. I'll be happy about that instead!).

Thank you everyone for making my night wonderful!

-a-

Laugh of the day

"Ben's horrible work has now mutated men to look like this (shows the picture above)... with only half a face!" - Luke

-a-

A day

Some days

Gives me an up-side-down impression

Dresses!

How to find the perfect prom dress? First I thought I wanted a simple red one from the 1920's with a bare back. Then I thought, maybe a real princess dress would be amazing? After some consideration I began fantasizing about tulle, lots and lots of tulle in different shades of green and blue. But now I've decided. I want a green one!

http://www.bhldn.com/the-shop_dresses/twirled-sweetheart-dress-grass

Let's hope I can somehow get it from the US, stupid shop that only wants to send to adresses in the US or Canada. I'll get it... Somehow :)

-a-

Blue sky and purple balloon

Sometimes a present needn't be something big

A little light box full of balloon says even more than ten red roses

He loves me

-a-

The end of Today's hell

Good morning, good moooorning we talk the whole night through.

Good morning, good morning to you!

I was foolish enough to think today's troubles were over, what a silly tot I am!

The Sound of Silence

A thousand pieces shattered all over.

A million shards falling apart.

A mind disrupting into separated fragments.

Broken, destroyed, splintered.

-a-

Le confusion

To wake up is to meet the emptiness

To meet the emptiness is to realise I'm alone

To realise being alone is pain

To have pain is to be in pain.

Ya, you probably thought something smart would come out of that, didn't you? Na, I guess you didn't. T'is after all just my simple blog full of random comments.

At least there's something to brighten the darkness

The light, the sun, the happiness

There's only one question... How do you find them all?

I know how I nowadays at least can get a hint of them.

Loca by Shakira

-a-

The sky's like a bowl

I've been doing some thinking recently. What is my favourite colour? What is a colour? Today I came to realise something. I think my favourite colour is sky. You can never truly name it, but it's always there, always changing. There's no darker blue than skyblue on the darkest hour of the night. Nothing as magical as to see the sun wash itself in the early morning or just before going to bed, leaving little traces of orange, pink and purple. Sky's my favourite colour.

-a-

Random

History... But common, how fun is it to study? First World War, sure it's important but when you can draw... I must admit I prefer drawing! A quick sketch of my B! Accidently made him look much meaner than he does in reality. Well, I'll have time to change it later on. But he's simply adoreable!

-a-

The Black Swan

When I was about five years old my mother decided she would take me and my older sister to see a ballet that was played in our town. This magical door that opened up to me showed me "The Swan Lake" by Tchaikovsky. However, it wasn't a classical version of this beautiful ballet but a modern version. Every swan was bald and even the male dancers were wearing tutus. The only one sticking out of the crowd was the prince with his golden curls and green outfit.

I was hooked, high as a kite, full of music and dance. Since then, I can't get enough of watching ballerinas tiptoe out on a huge stage carefully but still with a speed that amazes anyone who is lucky enough to catch a glimpse of it.

My great love to the fine art made me fly over the moon with excitement when I heard that C had got hold of "The Black Swan".

I've never seen a ballet movie like this ever before, the darkness, pain and suffering... Natalie Portman certainly makes the perfect swan. But my favourite is Mila Kunis. Seriously, how come I've never seen her in anything else except "That's 70's show" (which is a hillarious serie) and heard her doing the voice for Mel in "Family Guy"? Whoever it was that hid her should seriously reconsider his or her crime, Kunis is just AWSOME!

Anyways, not planning to reveal anything about the story, it's too stunning to read about. See it! But maybe at home first, I'm glad I didn't go to the cinema... Scary movie in big version. Death!

-a-

This is what I want

Looked through some old posts at LeLove and I found this adoreable picture, I love it! Would prefer to change the "Catch Spiders" to "Catch Earwigs"...

Still, so true!

-a-

Cézanne and Love and other drugs

Today Google had changed their logo to a painting made by Cézanne to celebrate his 172nd birthday. I simply LOVE when they change their logo to something else. It just catches my interest immediately!! So here we go, this is it for all you who haven't seen it yet:

However, what I really wanted to write about today, I can be sidetracked pretty easily, wasn't about Cézanne but about a movie that'll soon hit the cinemas: "Love and other drugs" with Anne Hathaway and Jake Gyllenhaal playing the main characters, Maggie and Jamie.

Is there anyone who wants to watch it? I'm dying to see it!!! Normally I'm not this enthusiastic about lovey-dovey movies but I can't help it! It looks like such a perfect feel-good movie that I get goosebumps all over my arms and a silly smile on my face everytime I see the trailer or the poster. I'm silly I know but common, don't you want to see it? Is there another movie you want to go and see in the cinema?

-a-

Confession

I have to make a confession.

My activity here has decreased. But there's a perfectly acceptable answer to that: I've not had anything giggly, bubbly, uplifting or joyous to write about!

First I was really upset about coming home from the wonderful country of the Beatles and London Bridge. Then I got sick, really sick. When I'm sick I just can't do anything. From my point of view, writing about how it is to lie in my bed all day long sleeping or thinking isn't very interesting (the sleeping, the thinking is fun for me but nothing I need to share with everyone else) for anyone to read. Therefore I haven't written anything. I'm sorry, I'll try to get back on track and update for the ones (is there anyone?) who reads this with something that I think will lift their day to a happier level.

Until then... Check out adultswim.com! Their videos are HILLARIOUS and well, if you happen to not have anything important to do you can alsways amuse yourself with the games. Enjoy!

-a-

Beads beads beads, I'm gonna have some beads

The best thing today, I remembered I have some bottles of beads! Plan so far is: The mushrooms are for a friend who I promised I'd make earrings for but the others... The heart will fly with a little bird to B. The star and the sign with "Lycka (=happiness)" are still waiting for a proper place. Oh well, they'll find their spot when the time is right.

Beads must possess magical powers, they cheer me right up with their bright, sunny colours!

By the way, here's a link to an AWSOME song, don't you just love it?

Beer Beer Beer

-a-

My sun, my moon, my stars, my heart

The answer to my moodswings, chocolate cravings and belly ache has arrived. I think we all know what I mean so... I will not try to explain any further the state I'm in for the moment.

Kitty Cat's lying resting on top of her little tower. There's nothing as calming as a warm, fuzzy, sleeping cat. Well, besides waking up next to the most gorgeous man, my man.

Iiih, I get such a tingling sensation going through my whole body every time I think of it! My gorgeous man. My man!

You can go on pretending you have the finest partner in the whole world, but for me there's no one but him. This time, it's not only my blinded eyes who can see his true beautiful nature.

And lovely, that only makes my feelings grow stronger.

With him there are no doubts. He never started off playing games. The one thing he did was to listen, was to tell. For everything he heard he gave a million back. As soon as I uttered a single syllable he put it on his mind, and guarded it carefully, as if what I said was worth it's length in gold. He was honest from the beginning, straightforward and easy to read because he never even tried to hide his wants or wishes from me. Sometimes it would hurt him that I didn't open up as quickly. But he knows why, pain doesn't go away easily, it never really does, you only get immune to it in the end somehow.

He healed me better than I know yet. When I wake up next to my sleeping man just before he opens his beautiful brown eyes I have to pinch myself mentally to make sure I'm not still dreaming. Then when he slides his arms around me to make sure I'm as close as possible my scars begin to fade. I did not expect this miracle to happen. I never intended us to happen. But now I'm so happy we did that the thought of us not being together brings out tears.

Therefore, even though experience should have taught me better, I trust him. I trust him with all my heart, brain and body, all of me. I am a silly fool, but for us I belive. I belive in love. I belive in him.

-a-

New Year - New Adventures!

After spending Christmas with a fever hotter than hell and a sore throat I quickly (not very fast but at least with an airplane) I travelled to to the land of tea and scones to be greeted by the finest lad in all of England, my lovely B.

Eight, nearly nine, days spent with him was probably the best thing I could have done during this holiday. It is definitely the part of my break that I prefer over all the other things I did! To sum it all up I'll give you a few words:

Ciderbar, tea (lots and lots!), pasties, baby cousin, Swedish people, kisses, Rich Tea Fingers, ASDA, Charity Shops, £1.5 CD, buses (coaches), cuddles and a date with ice-skating and dinner.

Dinner at a Chinese restaurant with B

Now I'm back home and it only means I've truly realised how much I miss him. I knew how it would feel, I know how much of a silly fool I've been getting myself involved. But what is there I can do when he's so amazing? I've given up, and therefore I'm falling. Let's see how deep I'll go before anyone hinders me. But before that happens... I'll enjoy the ride!

-a-